Just when I thought holiday and relaxing life are finally starting, bad news just stuck me like a sudden lighting bolt. I couldn’t believe at first, and I never thought that I would feel so miserable. I rmb the first time i heard the news, i was shocked. so shocked that I haf not give any reaction. or either, i forgot to have any reaction or feeling. I knew i should be crying, or even angry for being informed late, but i didnt.
something bad happened to my mum.
n asshole me still thought my parents were home late because they went for shopping. i ought to slap myself.
anw, i shall not reveal in details wad exactly happen cos my family wants it to be a hush hush thingy.
and i’ll just pray for my mum’s safety. seriously, i miss her. I’ve been crying whenever someone mentioned about my mum. even today when kai asked me “Are you worried about your mum?” i cried. and he kept asking the same question wanting me to answer truthfully. i realised i cant. I wanted to say, or even shout “YES, I MISS HER ALOT.” but i cant. and everytime kai asked, those words kind of stuck me like some meteor rain and my tears couldn’t stop. i dunno y but i seriously miss her. yes, kai, i miss her ALOT. i guess i could only say those words here.
i seriously like to thank the ppl who have been with me even though there isnt many. but they were impt. and the first person i want to thank is kai. thanks for being with me these days n supporting me. i seriously think that i m gg to collapse w/o u. and sry for being harsh on you these days. today you really made me cry double hard when u gave me those fierce stares when i m harsh (or my so called joking) on you. i noe i shouldnt be like this even when times r tough…but…well…hais.
n my family members. i really really can feel the importance of family now. the whole world can be not understanding to you and fierce with you but never ur family. thx. i noe u guys say harsh words but i understand u guys care.=)
let’s now juz hope all these bad news will turn into gd news ya?
(n thank goodness i m not wrking now, else i think i will juz break dwn.)
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