and so, I am changing blog. Here’s the url:

http://unfoldablelove.blogspot.com/

for readers who like to read my blog, do followup on my blog. And sorry for the inconvenience=)

I dun need a complicated blogsite for my daily entries…I realised that I just need a simple blog, for a simple girl like me. but i’ll not delete this blog yet…until someday. Afterall, it contains memories that could not be brought over to the new blog.=)

something bad happened to my mum.

n asshole me still thought my parents were home late because they went for shopping. i ought to slap myself.

anw, i shall not reveal in details wad exactly happen cos my family wants it to be a hush hush thingy.

and i’ll just pray for my mum’s safety. seriously, i miss her. I’ve been crying whenever someone mentioned about my mum. even today when kai asked me “Are you worried about your mum?” i cried. and he kept asking the same question wanting me to answer truthfully. i realised i cant. I wanted to say, or even shout “YES, I MISS HER ALOT.” but i cant. and everytime kai asked, those words kind of stuck me like some meteor rain and my tears couldn’t stop. i dunno y but i seriously miss her. yes, kai, i miss her ALOT. i guess i could only say those words here.

i seriously like to thank the ppl who have been with me even though there isnt many. but they were impt. and the first person i want to thank is kai. thanks for being with me these days n supporting me. i seriously think that i m gg to collapse w/o u. and sry for being harsh on you these days. today you really made me cry double hard when u gave me those fierce stares when i m harsh (or my so called joking) on you. i noe i shouldnt be like this even when times r tough…but…well…hais.

n my family members. i really really can feel the importance of family now. the whole world can be not understanding to you and fierce with you but never ur family. thx. i noe u guys say harsh words but i understand u guys care.=)

let’s now juz hope all these bad news will turn into gd news ya?

(n thank goodness i m not wrking now, else i think i will juz break dwn.)

Everyone is asking me what i’ll be doing after I graduated.

My answer to all: I don’t know.

I chose not to stay in my intern company after I graduate, so I am jobless now.

I chose to enter uni after I grad, so I’ve 6 mths to spare now.

But I dunno if my choices are right. My parents said gg uni r right. I feel that I want to study more so I think that it is right. But izzit really right?

And yet, what’s really right or wrong?

I guess life is not abt right or wrong, but is about whether you want or not. Do the things that you really want, be with the person that you love, stay in the place that you feel belong to…that’s the real life.

Anw, kai is planning a celebration with me to9, to celebrate that I graduated. I am seriously happy. Becos from next week onward, I can start doing things that I want to do, and rest whenever I can. But i think it wont last long. I feel a need to work, to earn money, to gain experiences.

Maybe I will go for freelance, and a part time job. Or a events job where I can enjoy while working. I want to try production life, but it’s pretty impossible if I am gg to uni.

Some loss and some gain, i guess?

And i pray to enter a local uni.

Sorry for random lines of words cos I am having mixed feelings now. Happy yet sad, excited yet bored.

I dunno what’s for me in the future. Somehow I hope to settle down and start another life. Lol, so weird. i find myself to young to say this, haha.

anw, I will be back to blog more abt wad I m gg to after I grad when I thought of one. haha.

Take care everyone ya? tough times r sure to come but they will be over soon=)

So what should I do for that 6 mths?

I admit that I’m pretty lazy to work. I want a break. I want to relax, enjoy life and play. But I need money to do all those. So it’s either my savings get lesser or I satisfy my rest time n wrk more for money. Whatever it is, I’ve got to plan. I’ve, perhaps, a mth plus to plan since I am gg overseas in abt a mth’s time and it’s useless for me to get a job now.

ANW, these days I’ve got some logics about ppl’s opinions towards love and r/s. I guess it’s due to after-effect of the movie The Valentine’s Day by taylor swift. In the show, there were two great friends, a guy-girl friendship. Then this guy starts off the movie proposing to his gf whom everyone thinks that she’s not suitable for and will not choose tt guy but no one told the guy. And the girl(the one in the friendship) fell in love with a doctor who’s married but lied to her that he had divorced. And so, in the end, they found out the truth and they broke up with their partners. And then someone said something to the girl and she suddenli realised that the love she has been searching for might all along be her good friend, which is that guy. and at the end of the show, they were tgt.

And it suddenli hits me with what my friends told me last time. One of them said it’s impossible for her to ever fall in love with her good friend, who is a guy. The reason isn’t because she dun love the guy, but is that she will not love the guy because he’s her gd friend. She commented that it just make things weird. I beg to disagree that time but I wasn’t strong in my arguement. But now, I seriously beg to differ.

In the movie, one of the guy asked his friend(a guy) how did he and his wife ever stay so sweet and strong and understanding towards each other. The guy just answered “Because I married my best friend.”

And now I think it isn’t too bad to fall in love with best friend too. It may be weird at first, but that’s how everything starts. you can be so close with your best friend because you understand each other. you like your best friend because you have postive feelings to him/her. you can say everything to your best friend because you trusted him/her. and the list adds on…Aren’t all these impt points you look for in someone whom you are gg to be with forever?

I seriously think such ppl r hard to find in life and once you found one, you shuldn’t let the person go. esp if tt person have positive feelings to you too.

And my the other friend also mentioned that her future bf must be someone that she admired.like he have some talent or great looks that she admired or look up upon. I dunno what other think of this but to me is NO. as in…not nescessary. cos to me, bf should be someone that you can depend on and enjoy life with and feel at ease with and not some god that you pray for.

Just my 2cents worth of life. =)

anw, hows everyone’s cny?? mine was pretty normal. lol. It’s just seriously terrible when cny is tgt with v.day.

cos it means no time for valentine and more time for family and relatives.

but nevertheless, I enjoyed my holidays. afterall, I can rest. haha. slp more, eat more and gain more. holla!

What am I exactly to you?!

Not only the cny holiday, but also after graduation holiday.

Yes, is really sinful to slack a mth plus not doing any wrk n not earning any money. but, well, wad can i do? I am gg overseas=0

and i wanna rest. Super tired. I think my 3 yrs weariness from overnight project work and burnt weekends are all coming to me now. I can feel the heavy shoulders, tired eyes and dried skin. mannx, why do i feel like a zombie? haha.

Listening to songs now. best therapy i can ever get at such busy times, i guess? Now i just hope a bowl of hot soup is right infront of me. maybe my decision is not wrong after all.

Have weird dreams these days. maybe I am too stressed up, tts y. and these nights, I kept coughing till i woke up middle of the night. gosh. make me even more tired.

alright, no more nonsense. haha. n i hope i get my pay soon.I wanna get my cny clothes=).

I really like this company cos it’s finally a working place where I can work and smile deep within my heart. Well, but you got to admit that the working hours are long and the pay…well, i dunno if it’s gd or not cos I wasn’t told. But it’s office work. I used to dread of office work but this internhsip let me realise that office work isnt tt bad sometimes when you can get to go out and meet cilents at times. haha.

I realised that many ppl was asked to stay after internship, including my classmate shiqi. lol. This shows that our dmc batch is pretty good.lol!

Anw, the reason y i decided not to do is becos I realised that if I am going to work 5 days to 6 days a week in this job, I will start neglecting other commitments I have in life. Can i afford to do so? NO. I have piano and seriously, i told myself that I need a break. The reason y i hestitate is becos I need money. That’s when human gets greedy. I want money and time. But i realised I can’t have both.

And since now I am jobless, I wanted to start looking for a part time job. some real meaningful part time job, where work = play= money = fun. haha. Thought of gg into production but tt seriously contradict what I want. becos production means less time and less money, but well, more fun though.

Currently I guess I’ll juz take my freelance job, or if lucky, get a part time job. But i think is hard for me to get it now since I m gg on holiday in mid march. lol.

seriously, i dunno wad i m typing above.haha. suddenli a quote just come out from my mind. It’s a quote my course mates came up with. “Life is a dick, sometimes it just gets hard for no reason.”

Haha!

Haha, contradicting, isn’t it?but the smelly tofu are really great. For those who dunno what’s that, they are actually fried tofu that are smelly because of the herbs that used to cook the tofu. well, if u still dunno what i m talking about, google it and you will know. haha. They are delicious because the outer is crispy while the inner is juicy hot and soft. Instead of saying that they stinks, they smells really great.=)

Other than smelly tofu, we also ordered braised meat rice (for me), sha gua noodles (for kai), pearl milk teas (for both of us) and rice dumplings with rice wine (we shared).  Overall, I would say that they are all very delicious except for the braised meat rice. well, it supposed to be their specialty and many ppl are recommending it, yet i think it tastes weird. maybe i m the weird one. lol. Or either, i dun really like it because i dun fancy pork alot, especially fatty pork. lol. I guess my diet for the next few days will  have more veges and less meat. haha.

bt still, i would recommend this restaurant for ppl who like taiwan cuisines or ppl who like to try not local food. It is located at joo chiat road near kallang mall. Kai n I decided that we would visit again some other day to try other nice dishes there. Afterall, it’s really rare to find real taiwan food in Singapore (i heard that the chef and boss are from Taiwan).

Before I left the shop, I got its namecard and realise that it provides catering too=) perhaps next time if my company need cater for Taiwan food, I will suggest this placeXD.

oh, anw, something really bad happened to kai today. He got molested!!!!by a maid in public somemore=X And I would say it’s a very bad and brutal type of molest cos the maid practically used her fist to hit kai’s below. well, u noe what i mean. I suppose all the guys who real till here will say “ouch!”. lol! But it’s really obvious that she did it on purpose since I was just right beside kai (with a step behind) and yet she can hit kai and totally avoid me=.=. I thought she just hit kai’s arm so I didn’t have much reaction but after kai recovered from the pain, he told me that she actually hit his below with full force. And I was seriously mad but it’s too late. (well, i did laughed a little=X) But i regretted that I didnt shout at her. walau, molest my kai.LOL.

well, should I say looking cute is a sin too? haha. kai, hu ask you to be so adorableXD.

anw, left 4 dead 2 tmr! time to destress but smashing all the zombies=). well, i sound real violent here. haha, but tts me. at least I wont go ard hitting ppl’s below. LOL.

some random. Kai n I thought of a lame ad for visa today. Actually, I thought it was a pretty good ad if ppl could put down their it’s-so-lame attitude and go with the humor.

1st part:

It actually take place in a gay club where lots of guys hitting a man’s butt, who is standing on the table and shaking his ass. And the usual custom is that those guys who hit the man’s butt actually put money into the man’s undies. However, when everyone was doing that, it was somewhat rejected. Then suddenly a guy appear with the visa card and trying to slash the card between the ass, it is accepted. Then black screen and the visa logo with it’s tagline appear. And the whole advertisement ends off with the guy making the seductive and satisfying sound.”ahhh~”

2nd part:

It takes place in the same gay club as the 1st part. The man keep dancing and shaking his ass on the table top and every man below is hitting his ass. Then suddenly, there’s a man who take out his cash and trying to put into the man’s undies, and everyone starts to turn around and stare at him. Then that man who is holding cash then notice that everyone has a visa in their hands and they are all preparing to slash the cards in the man’s ass. Then black screen with visa’s logo and tagline appearing. The ad then ends off with the dancing man’s scream as if he’s being tortured. (because too many people slashing cards at his ass.haha!)

Not too bad right?? haha! it’s juz a random idea kai n I thought of. So readers, please dun mistaken it as a real ad. IT’S JUST A RANDOM THINKING BY TWO RANDOM PEOPLE. Hopes what I typed didn’t offence anyone or any companies.

Anw, time to have own personal time again=)) cheers!

I found this nice and interesting song on Facebook today. I find it really meaningful. It saying about young people always feel that someone dun understand them but actually that’s not true. Is just that young people are just not willing to explain themselves and they just conclude that no one understand them. I think this song depicts alot alot of moments we have.

Sometimes I guess we should look back and see is it true that others dun understand us or is it we ourselves dun allow people to understand. perhaps things are much more easier and relationships are much better if we could start reflecting and open up.

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Anw, i seriously can’t wait for weekends. Last weekends were really too short and I didnt have time to play and enjoy. well, but i still happy for last week’s event.haha. sat gg to eat taiwan cuisine and hopefully sun, L4D2. heex!anw, i saw a v.nice watch tt i wanted to buy

Nice right?? haha. i hope mum can buy for me as she promised=)

Despite the planning and making of the event is really really super extremely tiring and stressed, i still hope that it didnt end that fast. I enjoyed every moment, even though there are OT. haha, i guess i m crazy=X

And one of my colleagues honestly told me that he read my blog once. haha, thx for the honesty. I kind of expected it but I never thought that anyone could be that honest. LOL. but welcome to my blog=) I seriously dun mind more readers. haha.

5 to 6 more weeks left and i will graduate from poly. time passes pretty fast. But i kind of like it. I just hope schooling doesnt end as fast.lol.

parents finally back from genting. haha, n i’ve got lots of gifts!!O.O. soft toys and more soft toys!i bet mum is treating me as a kid now.haha!!!